need to get this off my chest

it's not that i don't want to do it or be slack, it's not that i don't want to contribute, it's not that i don't care about it, it's just that i'm really a slow learner and it takes me more time than the average person to grasp certain instructions or concepts. sometimes i wonder how i was able to make it to the uni, with my inability to lead, to do things efficiently, to be productive. maybe i wasn't meant to be in the uni, then i wouldn't be under so much pressure to meet others' expectations. i really try my best, but somehow trying my best is never good enough for others.

welcome home mama!

mama suffered a minor heart attack on monday morning, and i missed macro tut cos I had to stay in the hospital to check on mama's condition. it's indeed a waiting game over there. finally the cardio doctor told me she had to be admitted into the ccu - coronary care unit. turned out her major arteries are blocked at various parts of the arteries, which caused her lungs to be filled with fluid which led to chest pain and breathlessness. my heart ached (metaphorically and literally) when i saw that mama was unable to down her food and that she kept feeling nauseous from too much blood samples taken from her to test for diabetes. and i can tell u - hospital food is so unappetitising that i also wouldn't be able to down THAT kind of food.

this week has really been a blur..rushing about from the hospital, to school and back home. suddenly everything has been turned upside down. i actually lost track of time, thinking that the next day was wednesday instead of thurday. the useless me who never did much housework had to start washing clothes, hanging them, sweeping the floor etc. this is the result of the complacent me who has been relying too much on mama. now it's time to learn how to do all the housework and cooking, on top of taking care of mama. sleeping at the hospital beside mama was no comfort at all, especially if it meant sleeping on chairs and waking up every now and then to check on mama. but of course i did it willingly. food doesn't excite me any more, just lack of appetite to eat and forcing food down so that I've enough energy to take care of mama.

i'm glad she's back home recuperating. after cny she has an appointment with the surgeon who is holding a family conference to decide when to have the bypass surgery. i hope it'll be asap so that the risk of another heart attack will be lower. and i sincerely pray that the operation will be successful. i want her to be back to her happy healthy self, and back at cruise where she always camps at the casino.

all these had to happen near cny. first ah kong passed away on the 2nd day of last cny, and now mama's going through this. i seriously DO NOT like cny any longer... no mood to celebrate at all. forget the angbaos, forget the new year goodies, forget the visiting.

sushi go round

Sushi Go Round Serve all the customers in the Sushi Restaurant

Play this free game now!!

this is a super addictive game! see whether u can finish serving in all 7 days!

gone...

I'm very upset...the 2 black babies died. i'm traumatised. previously i did not see the remains of those who died..but now, it's like their flesh is being eaten up halfway, and one even has only its head left. i'm so so sad..now there are only 3 white ones left and they look quite weak as well. is it cos mummy hamster gave birth to too many that it's left to the stronger ones to survive? then in that case i would prefer to have fewer so that all can survive. i just hope i don't have to undergo this trauma again.

the arrival of the babies!

Let's welcome the new addition to the hamster family! 5 babies! initially there were 6 but unfortunately 1 died..well it's really survival of the fittest.
May be giving 2 to my cousins. Hope they'll take good care of them! unlike my other cousins, who actually pulled their whiskers! naughty!

And this was the first batch of babies..of which 2 survived and are now happily...mating. need to separate them asap, if not i'll be needing more cages, food (which includes hamster biscuits that mama eats), bathing powder etc.

cha-cha-cha x 2!

Normally i only get to watch musicals or plays twice or more if i happen to be working at the espla on those rare times that i actually get to work there. (which reminds me: i have yet to start fulfilling the compulsory 36 hours each year at the risk of losing my part-time job there! *gasp*) This time round, the second time there was worth it. Not only did i get to satisfy my craving of listening to Dwayne Tan sing "Ivy" again, which is my current favourite by the way, I bought the Beauty World soundtrack! Yes the price may be a little steep, in my opinion, at 25 bucks, but it's really really worth it. :) I actually smile to myself whenever I listen to that Ivy song. Simply obsessed with it! So here's the cover:



and the back:



And the bonus part is...there was a post show autograph session! woohoo! quickly lined up and got all their signatures, as shown below:



A pity that my digicam was not with me. If not I could have taken with them. Dwayne!!! Still, I'm happy that I managed to see them upclose and even talked to some of them. Denise Tan's really friendly! Told her that I enjoyed her performance in Crazy Christmas (another Wild Rice production) and she thanked me for supporting the arts. You're most welcome! =) Elena was all prim and proper, both on and off stage, but I like her accent...very...proper. heh. Darren looked really exhausted, think he's not used to performing in musicals yet since this should be his first one, if i'm not mistaken. I'm sure he will after a few more, if he's given more chances.

Anyway sidetrack a little, ys gave me this! Though it's a merry belated xmas gift, it's REALLY the thought that counts. How sweet of her! Thanks once again gal! That really made my day...

signs of a pregnant hamster

signs of a pregnant hamster:

- gathering wood shavings to a designated position
- drinking LOTS of water
- running around in a frenzy
- getting fatter

and that's what my xiao xiao bai is doing. gosh think she's pregnant for the second time! more babies on the way! this time i'm gonna make sure none of them die..

did my fyp today and there's still lots more to go..really wanna get it over and done with! properly of course..
hmmm..the sid person has not called me yet to reschedule the interview. but it's a blessing in disguise cos i'm totally unprepared. need to have more time for mental preparation.

i'll be watching beauty world for the 2nd time with mama. hope this time i get a better view of the cast and setting. i still prefer the television version 10 years ago though. miss evelyn tan's acting and singing! if she releases another album i will definitely buy. it's a pity her talent is not uncovered to the max and that she has only 2 albums to her name - mo qi and together.

going redang from 20th to 23rd march. simply can't wait for that day to arrive! another diving trip awaits me! and i miss redang alot since i last went there in 2006. the beach is just perfect coupled with the sky blue sea. felt like i were in paradise. i shall relive that feeling in approximately 2 months' time! and the best thing is that it's after the fyp deadline. redang here i come!